Unending Cycle of Pain

How much... just how much pain does one has to bear?
Life feels like an unending cycle of pain where you just have no idea how to release yourself from it
When you are so happy that you pray for the time to stop, sadly it doesn't stop and our fate tells us not to be too conceited because nothing in this life comes free
Happiness is something very short-lived and we should seriously learn how to embrace it whenever we get it
I personally have stopped believing in happiness, because it has always been preceded by immense pain
Hence I am always skeptical whenever something good happens

Anyway...
I have no idea what to do..
It hurts so much that you either feel like killing yourself or breaking down everything you see in front of you.. but obviously we cant indulge in such extreme activities at this age
Trying to move forward in life , achieving a lot, gaining success and everything
But the emptiness still remains
Its like you have lost a very important part of you... and no matter what you do.. you just cannot recover it... can never feel the way you once felt

Time goes on... Its been so many years already that you feel like you have gotten so old
but the wound is still as fresh as ever... reminding you to never forget it
And what do we learn from life?
To never depend on anyone except our own selves
Because even the sweetest people are toxic for your life from up close
They are the very people who claim to love you the most but end up putting you in worst state possible by their selfishness

Just Another Valentines Day

Another year pass... And it's already time when everyone who are in love spend it with their significant other, and then there are many who spends this day alone.

Whereas there is another set of people who are frozen in a time so long ago that there's no trace of it left except for in the heart of these people. These people are just incapable of moving forward.

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What i wonder is... what are they supposed to do exactly?
Once a person falls in love with someone very seriously with all their heart, is it possible to feel that much love or even half of that with someone else again?

What if they went in and out of relationships falsely telling themselves that they are in love again only to find out at the end that they felt nothing at all for the other person? Or even worse i should say that they are so numb that they are incapable of feeling that emotion and realize that they can only feeling attachment and affection for others and nothing more than that.

What does it take to release oneself from that past and actually feel something again?

New Year New Beggining

Another New Year stars with many positive thoughts and feelings

I could not update my blog right after getting admitted to university because soon after that my laptop broke T.T ; now after more than 1.5 year i was finally able to get it fixed, hence i am writing this post, its a real hassle posting from your mobile with all the bugs n etc >.<

Anyway, this year started really well once again like last year. The previous year had started with celebrating with my sister and her friends, and this one started with different people i met over the year and we all partied together to start the year as well as to celebrate our friendship.

2016 has been one heck of a year for me. It started so well but then there too many negativity in it, and what kept me going on were my two adorable cats who gave me company when everyone else did not, and eventually i met so many people who are till this date very important to me.

Some unannounced visitors also came when i least expected them to, it was really hard time but it ended well...

And of course when I mention hard time then how can I forget my university life?

Its been real tough but its pleasant also
And guess what? I even got to experience my life's first fracture this year and had to give my start year semester exams in that condition :(