Happy Valentines Day !

Ok..
So the most Fret over and largely celebrated day among the teens as well as anyone who values love more than anything is finally here xP

I honestly never celebrated this day (Forever Alone Girl) and i don't really know how it must feel to spend this day with the one you love the most but still...

 For all those who truly loved someone with all their heart regardless of all the good and bad in them this song by Avril is one of the best one to express your feelings
For me also, this song hold not just one but few very precious memories.
Even if things are different now, these things can never ever change.
And of course this is for all the anime lovers out there also *-*
Lol i guess i am getting carried away xD 

Anyway, i don't know about you guys but for me this day has been unusually boring , had to empty out my room for painting, entertain my newly shifted little cousin and spent rest of the time crafting hearts with nobody to give it to :P (height of being forever alone :P)
But at-least i am not the only person alone today
Aligarh has been infected with swine flu preventing people from going out
So as a 'certain someone' said that if we cant enjoy this day today then why should they? xD

Anyway i hope everyone had a nice Day today ^^
and here is a little example of my lonesome heart xD
A Very Happy Valentine's Day everyone ♥\( *-* )
May You have an unforgettable day xD

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Boring Start of February

February already here, and for everyone its time to get busy preparing for Valentine's day with their certain someones or to go find one.

And for a forever alone girl like me, the start of Feb only means that its time to get serious and study much more seriously since the day of the entrance exam of Aligarh Muslim University is rather near

I have no time to write any blog posts either lately let alone celebrate Valentine's day or even the Single Awareness day.

Gotta stop myself from getting addicted to manga during this period also T.T
Any normal Otaku can understand my feelings right now that how difficult it is to stay away from my precious anime world.

Its soooo damn boring right now studying these stupid subjects which makes me sleepy just looking at them and by restricting myself from doing anything which may get me off track from my goal, even took break from my gaming during this preparation period, and this boredom brings out the normally dead artist outta me by doodling around xD

Rebound Relationships

Why do people opt for rebound relationships? 

Specially when they aren't even over their past?

Loneliness? to kill off emptiness by having someone around? Need someone to baby them out? Or falsely telling themselves that they are in love when in reality in every step with the current one they can only see the past rather than the person who is there for them?

What exactly is the point of  it anyway?

I mean if you aren't really over your past then you cant really fully love the person who is there for you

I know that it isn't easy forgetting our past and to be honest nobody can ever fully forget it but still...
How exactly is it fair on the person who is there with you in the present?

People don't understand that in the process of this whole thing they are just playing with the feelings of the person who is caring for them.

You may think that the other person isn't aware of it but you are wrong, they know all of it yet they silently stay with you, support you in everything, regardless of how much it might be hurting them because they truly care about you.

Nevertheless, its as good as using them for your own sake , and hurting them while trying to heal your own self
And i don't think that is fair at all.

I believe that we should fully let go of the past before moving on to next relationship or go for a rebound because these things can make neither you nor the other person happy  and it ends not too greatly for either of you.

What Does It Take To Forget?

I guess its easy to live life somewhat with positivity without looking back and moving forward
but is it easy to remove certain things from our memories  altogether? I suppose that's a stupid question to ask but I still wonder

how many of us can forget things and also remove them from our unconscious mind?
Is it even possible to do so?

I don't really know much about spirituality or however these things works

But when we have long forgotten things in our lives, why do they still haunt us in our dreams?

The tears which we never shed when the painful incident occurred

Why do they fall in the dreams so uncontrollably?
Why is it that it feel like we have no pain and our feelings all cold and we are living our life happily and positively
Yet in our dreams it hurts so much that you cant breathe?

I keep telling everyone that its pointless running after something which you know you cant have
So why do we still do that?
Why cant we just grasp the Happiness which is right ahead of us?
Why does this unconscious mind takes over and makes us stagger around the negative path when we aren't even aware of it?

Lol
This might be my first most confusing post ever for certain people
who are just as clueless as i am when it comes to these things xD

Finally Happy New Year!

Finally the long awaited year end is here

This year has been extremely eventful

and full of all sort of emotions

a little bit of heart break, a little bit of sadness, exam stresses :P but after that it was all happiness, excitement, togetherness, and creating so many memories with everyone precious to me

i know that these years would come and go and these people may change or not be what they were back then but what we had all had in those moments shall mean everything to me and be remembered for a lifetime.

This may seem like a mere tissue but it is very precious to me
there are people from that time whose name might not be mentioned here but still those are also just precious.

 

This year taught me a lot.
I lost some really precious people who meant so much to me but i am not sad about it because they also taught me some important lessons and i would like to thank them for it
And losing people isn't the only thing i got.
instead i gained  people who became such great friends and changed everything for me when i had least expected it.
Became my strength and encouraged me when i needed it the most.

On My Birthday which i was expecting to be a lonely depressing one, i got a surprise parcel from some unknown person and i was shocked and close to tears when i saw  this inside.
This may look like an ordinary mug but this is a magic mug with a picture he attached on it from my childhood times with me and my close group of cousins and sisters :)
This was so far the best birthday gift i could ever receive.
This was a surprise from my brother Ashay and this was the first start of all the good things happening to me in this year.
Thank You so much bro for making it all so special for me :)

And the end of this year has been used in the best possible way.
An all girls day out with my friends and sister :D
watched movies hangout and even met these little cuties xD

At the end of it all
i would say that this year ended with 0 regrets and only positivity :)
Hope this new year will be much greater than the previous one
and create much more beautiful memories :)

Happy New Years everyone!

Merry Christmas to all!!!!

 

 Merry Christmas Everyone!
i got late in making this post T.T
but what can i do?
its so damn cold and makes anyone lazy xD

This is my 5 years old niece Noor getting over excited after seeing the whole Christmas decoration for the first time LOL

  For the first time in her life she met a Santa, and that santa even gave her free toffees so it was like a heavenly day for her :P

She even dropped the gift from the counter in her over excitement xD

This Tiny Santa on display was soo sooo cute

 And this Christmas Tree was the best and the most Beautifully Decorated one
They were selling really yummy special plum Christmas cakes over there
even  tho it was a bit pricy but it was worth a try :D

 Here she is again
at her mischief xD

and yet another beautiful decoration  by the People of Great Value Mall

And this girl just wouldnt stand still for a decent photo
getting all excited yet again :)

 here is a somewhat decent picture where she is thankfully not moving and concentrating too hard on which balloon to take from here :P

 And this the only single pic of mine though its so blur i am barely visible here xD

 And as the day had been going so great and beautiful for my Niece
my dad had decided a surprise for my mother.

 He took her to this store and gifted her awesome coats
my mother was like soooo surprised and she was like
today is not anybody's birthday or anniversary xD

She was tooo happy
and one of the coat she chose was something i had my eyes on 

too bad for T.T
but well while they were too busy buying coats here

 i was busy reminiscing the time i came to this building the first time.
It was one memorable day of somebody's birthday :)

so in all that i lost my chance to buy anything >.<

 Later on when we came to petrol pump for some gas, we saw this another Santa
the previous Santa at the mall was a female and this one was a male
and he gave toffees not only to baby but to everyone in car Also xD

here he is taking out toffees :D

 Here he is trying to shake hands with her and she is getting so shy shy
hehe

 And here all grinning and shaking hands with him xD

Yet again the smile just wouldn't go off her face

doesn't seem to be letting go of the hand of the Santa
totally unaware of the traffic behind her xD

Finally we had to pull her back in the car and the Santa was Waving at us

Overall it was a great day for all of us
and first time Seeing how people celebrate Christmas In Aligarh City :)

Those of You who might be interested in Some awesome Christmas Items and ways to make this holiday season even more special should give this blog a try http://ourholidayshopping.blogspot.in/

It has some really Great stuff here

And last but not the least

Here's a bracelet i made on my own for the first time
I know this is totally unrelated to Christmas post but too lazy to make a separate post for xD
and with all the colourful Christmas Decorations, this matches well with it xD

Dont Say you Love me

So My sister was listening to 'Heaven candlelight version' in her room with her husband and i could hear the song all the way to my room
and then lines started coming on their own in my head

i think its more than a year since i have written something 

so this is what i ended up with

i know its so not perfect but what can u expect for after more than a year later writing? =P

anyway

for those who cant read my hand writing xD

Here goes:

Don’t say you love me
When you don’t really care
Don’t tell me you'll wait for me
When you aren’t even sure
i have lived through once
In the life of ultimate fairy-tale romance

And getting my hopes up that someday

This girlish dream would come true

But alas!

The expected heartbreak had to come

To shatter all my beliefs

And wake me up from the childish dreams

Don’t even try to reach me

When you are looking elsewhere

Coz i am no longer a child

To believe in such sweet nothingness

So leave me alone with my solitude

Because when there was no one left for me

It’s the only thing which remained

So don’t dare to tell me to trust another person

Coz i am already done

Believing and getting deceived at the end,

I appreciate your efforts and everything you give

But what’s the surety that you won’t betray me the same?

So please try to understand my friend

I am better off alone

written and ©S.Naila Ahsan